dark skies

doesn't look like there are going to be blue skies for me yet. 

have been MIA cos have been feeling irritated and snarky for the past 2 weeks.

things have not gone right for a while..... missing objects and misplaced values, under-performing helper...

told myself not to sweat the small stuff. but it's easier said than done. when i look at the big picture, it's what lies beyond that riles me. ok, i know i am talking in circles.

anyway, just when i tell myself to let up a bit, another bigger dark cloud descended suddenly last night.

have been told it's not safe to go to bali next month. the 3 bali bombers are due for execution any day now and their supporters have vowed revenge.

reliable sources say retaliation may take place in the coming weeks.

question is: do we want to take the risk and put both families in the path of danger? if nothing happens, we all can breathe a sigh of relief, laugh at our paranoia and fly out of bali safely.

BUT WHAT IF SOMETHING HAPPENS???

i don't even want to think about it. there are 16 of us on this trip which we have planned for more than six months. everything is booked and paid for. 

my gut tells me to go ahead with the trip. we will be in ubud after all. in the past, terrorists have targeted kuta, the whites' playground. australia has already issued a travel advisory to all its citizens. understandably so because a large percentage of those killed in the last two attacks were australians.

but my head is cautioning me. besides, i have to be fair to my guests. i have to ask them if they are willing to take the trip. we cannot just drag them along just because it's our 20th anniversary.